Challenge Forecast

Master asked me to make a list of challenges, potential or actual that might arise from becoming a slave once again.

• Falling into bad habits. I have some very effectively trained, but pathological perspectives on M/s, and I need to be very careful to not fall back into those. Mindfulness is more important than ever. Current strategies include posting at least once a week on here about slavery, and re-reading old entries.
• Personal responsibility. Part of those destructive philosophies is the concept of ownership, and how it ties in to my own emotions and whether they are my responsibility. More on this in future posts. 
• Physical limitations. My physical health goes up and down, and this has definitely changed my ability to serve. I will need to focus on balancing allowing myself to get healthy physically, and doing the service things that feel good to me. 
• Need for affirmation. Along with the last point, I am reminded of how fixated I can get on praise, to the point of putting pressure on Master, and of shirking service when I don't feel the affirmation I would like. I need to remember that service should be done out of love, affection, and respect. Affirmation is separate, and I can, and should ask directly for it.
• Having my own s-type. I'm not used to going up and down with my headspace. As a doll, I've been kind of in the middle. Now, I'm petitioning to be a slave again, and simultaneously developing things with Pika (code name going forward). That rapid change in headspace is really difficult already, and managing that equilibrium will likely become even harder. I need to develop strategies to bring myself up and down, without relying on Master to bring me back down after every time I have to get toppy. Or, find a way to mesh the two headspaces. Food for thought.
• Time. I know in the past, I have felt like there wasn't enough time for "dynamic interaction". I think the two keys here will be clearly and patiently asking for what I need, and also learning to frame life in general as dynamic interaction. 
• Mental illness. Sometimes my brain just breaks. My current strategy is to recognize when my brain is breaking, and just table everything, so that I don't spiral and draw extrapolations that affect the dynamic, and my understanding of it. Also, take vitamins and use coping skills. 
• Gender. My gender stuff is complicated, and may affect how I feel dynamically. I've never been a boy slave. I don't know how to explore that now, but it may come up. 
• Vision. I need an overall purpose, and to know what the big picture goals are. If I don't have that, I start inserting my own. It's a problem. More on this in another post.
• Memory issues. This is fairly self explanatory. This makes blogging extremely important. Other tools include vitamins, and playing logic games like Symmetry. 
• Master's mental health and energy levels. 
• History. We aren't starting from scratch, and there's a lot of history, habits, and other parts of our past together that influence the future, and, especially for me, can bring up fears and insecurities. 

This is all I can think of for the moment, but I may add more.