Physical: Headache. Right shoulder out, back tight, itchy. I had artificial sweeteners today, and I still feel pretty awful from that.
Mental: A bit fixated on domestic issues. My OCD is bad. My stuff going missing exacerbates it.
Emotional: Stressed. I don't want to think about the things that are happening in my house. If one does not have a grip on reality, one should admit that, and defer to others' memories. Don't lie to me. I have so much to say on that topic, but I'm trying not to initiate a confrontation, for once.
Things bugging my OCD:
-Not being able to shave
-Not having the oil for my hair and face
-Not having my black skirts, and dresses
-Not being able to reach the shelf for my wigs, or put them on the top of the bookshelf
-Making plans for food and then having it disappear
-The general mess in the house
-My nails
-The bookshelf
-The front yard
I also feel fairly petulant in general. I think my little has grown up to be about 12 or 13, and she's coming out fairly frequently. I'm really not comfortable with it.
Fussy might be a good word too. I don't know what will snap me out of it, but I need to figure it out.
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