Physical: I'm on four hours of sleep. I have a yeast, and maybe bacterial infection. It itches like crazy. I am trying to treat it with a garlic clove. My muscles are still sore, but I don't actually feel like I'm experiencing cymbalta withdrawal symptoms. I'm also ravenously hungry.
Mental: Competent and clear headed, at least in vocabulary.
Emotional: Spacey. Maybe a bit lost, but also content to be lost as long as I'm left here. I'm not sure what my emotional trajectory should be, both for today, and going forward. What do I take from this scene? Do I keep the broken-pride thing? For how long? What does/should that look like? It's a lot to process. I don't know where to start, so for now, I'm not. Which I guess indicates that I'm still in hardcore no-decisons, need-orders after play mode. But I'm not particularly anxious about it. I'm in some weird kind of stastis.
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