Journal 11/2/17 Morning

Physical: I'm mast cell reacting a lot lately, and therefore overheating a lot. My elbows are cracked and bleeding. My back is hurting from doing dishes and cleaning the floors. And my vagina is very, very, very sore and itchy.

Mental: Focusing is easier today than it has been in a while. I'm being pretty productive. I woke up at 7:30, client at 9:30, I did my ISD application, did dishes, cleaned the floors... 

Emotional: I don't even know? I know I felt more easily triggered with that one client. I feel fairly scared of/repulsed by sexual things in general. I just want a cold room, and my Master, and cuddles. 

I'm worried about rent, and worried about finances in general. I couldn't clean all the way because we are out of dishwasher soap and garbage bags, so that doesn't feel great. 

This all sounds really negative, but it's actually not too bad of a day. I'm just really bad at regulating my emotions right now/