Physical: I'm feeling better than I was. Fairly rested, no headache, Not a whole lot of pain in my body. My hands are stiff.
Mental: Still clear headed, especially considering that it's morning and I haven't had caffeine.
Emotional: PEOPLE WHO HAVE KNOWN ME FOR YEARS HAVE NO EXCUSE TO KEEP DEADNAMING ME. Goddamn.
Last night had some issues, and they need to be talked about, but I'm not sure how to approach it, and I don't have emotional energy for a fight. I guess I feel fairly emotional today, but kind of subdued because I'm emotionally tired. It wouldn't take much for me to dissolve into tears, I think. I hope there's gentleness and kindness today. I'm glad to have another day before work to deal with that.
My OCD is still pretty bad, and unfortunately the crystal on my collar is the forefront of my OCD irritations. I don't like how it looks, or feels, or that I can't match my jewelry to it. But I don't know how to feel about that. I honestly really really want the ring of steel back.
I guess I'm actually generally more unsettled today than I realized when I first started writing this. I don't even know how to unpack it all right now.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
-
I am in a weird a fucking mood. I was really fussy, and then I remembered that this morning I was not happy about working because I had to...
-
I want to serve and submit publicly, and perfectly, and beautifully. I've trained for years. I've trained others. I want to feel bea...
-
I'm exhausted, and anxious, and not really sure why. Possibilities include: -generally sick -antibiotics -ant bites -natural gas fu...
No comments:
Post a Comment