I'm exhausted, and anxious, and not really sure why. Possibilities include:
-generally sick
-antibiotics
-ant bites
-natural gas fumes
-mold from A/C
-drop?
- Not putting my rings back on after work
-hungry
I'm thinking it's probably a combination of all of them.
I just want to go back to bed or the couch with Master, and have all of the physical contact and relaxing. And also ice cream. (Ice cream makes me suspect a little bit of drop)
Kierna is pretty influential in how I feel today. I don't need a whole lot of active interaction, just don't leave the room or I will freak. Being petted and scratched feel the best today.
I don't want Master to play with Beth tomorrow. It's just so close to the last time they did a significant and intimate thing (Master has deep scratches!?) that I haven't really had time to change the turning in my stomach to indifference or compersion. I'm not ready to add more stomach turning to the que.
But, it might all just be anxiety from outside sources that will dissipate naturally before then.
Nevertheless, I'm clingy as fuck, and I want all the affirmation.
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