Journal 8/21/17 Afternoon

That eclipse today really threw neme for a loop. It was like a full moon except way, way more intense. I woke up feeling good (I slept primal again), and about the time the eclipse hit, I was so, so drained, and everything felt like it was slow motion. Simultaneously, I was really, really overwhelmed. As soon as I finished my first client, I should have had another, but he quit responding, so I slept through the rest of the eclipse. When I woke up, I felt good again. It was very strange.

My first client was very shy. He was really young, and didn't know what to expect. He just stared at the ceiling. I wasn't even sure what he was consenting to. It was really disconcerting.

I was fairly productive today, though. I called the rental agency, and got answers to all of my questions. I asked Bailey for proof of income. I called about my Ulta order. I was ready for my first client, who came at 10:40. I caught up my work records.

I still have spoons, just not physical ones. I'm still hurting a fair bit (nerve and muscle pain, and my hand) But I'm clear headed, and emotionally calm. A lot of my biggest stressors are resolved.
I'm not sure what to do with my spoons. Maybe catch up paperwork and online things. And slice that watermelon.

I'd be happy with just about anything tonight. I'm fine working and relaxing on my own, even if Master leaves the house. I can adapt to spending time together, too, particularly if I have a heads up to transition my brain. I can talk, or not talk. The park sounds very nice, as long as there is a comfortable place to sit.

I do need some time to debrief about practical things today, though.

I'm overall pretty happy. Right now I'm writing and vaping outside, listening to goth music, and enjoying the breeze and cool air. The bugs aren't even bothering me.

What an unexpected and lovely reprieve from the frenzy of late.