Physical: my nail is still sore, but significantly better. Out seems like either the super glue took, or it readhered on its own. I accidentally cut off my circulation last night with the bandaid. My whole body aches, but my muscles are relaxed. Using the couch pillow to sleep on last night was really helpful. Also, I apparently can take nsaids if I take hydroxizine. That's useful. I'm also shaking a whole lot.
Mental: I'm fairly clear headed, but I also feel a bit dissociated, which is dangerous.
Emotional: I feel sad, insecure, and hurt. I'm more likely to be hurt and break down than to spiral. Everything seems heavy. This morning was really rough. I woke up to awful anonymous messages.
I used a few coping skills. I took a shower, and vaped while doing that. I ate a really good breakfast. And I turned on music. That helped, a bit. Now I'm cuddled under a blanket on the couch, trying to do more self care. Sweatpants and a tshirt.
I also had a lot of night terrors last night, and I'm not sure why.
Chance of spiral or meltdown if I leave home: 45%
Chance of spiral or meltdown if I'm home: 30%
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