Physical: My back hurts and I'm having some equilibrium problems. I nearly passed out on the floor this morning. I'm also having some digestive problems, and I'm constantly hungry, which is to be expected the week before I start my period. There's not a lot of solid, salty food at home.
Mental: I'm a bit scattered, frantic, and animated, but clear headed, and my vocabulary is good. I haven't had trouble with executive dysfunction today.
Emotional: There's a fair bit of stress. The kitchen stool isn't done, despite days of assurance that it would be, and I'm having a hard time trusting Master to address that with Arcane, since I'm not seeing results. That, combined with the lack of quick foods that the kitchen will allow me to prepare, besides cereal, is a major stressor.
My doctor's appointment was shit. Julie DiCianno is so rude, and dismissive, and unprofessional, and awful. She actually got mad to the point that she slammed her phone down on the counter, really hard. She set me up with the psych in that office, though, for the 24th, which is hopeful. I guess he actually sends people out to a psychiatric neurologist to get diagnoses solidified. She would not touch my meds, so I got super frantic and calmed every urgent care in town and asked who could. I ended up getting my lamictal raised, and straterra added. And, the urgent care I went to had an amazing CNP, who will be accepting patients as a PCP within a few weeks. I'm so happy about that.
It's nice to see some results from all of the frantic trying, and trying, and trying. I'm daring to hope that things might get better.
I'm very grateful for how much energy and time Master has put into helping me figure these things out and then manage them.
My doctor's appointment was shit. Julie DiCianno is so rude, and dismissive, and unprofessional, and awful. She actually got mad to the point that she slammed her phone down on the counter, really hard. She set me up with the psych in that office, though, for the 24th, which is hopeful. I guess he actually sends people out to a psychiatric neurologist to get diagnoses solidified. She would not touch my meds, so I got super frantic and calmed every urgent care in town and asked who could. I ended up getting my lamictal raised, and straterra added. And, the urgent care I went to had an amazing CNP, who will be accepting patients as a PCP within a few weeks. I'm so happy about that.
It's nice to see some results from all of the frantic trying, and trying, and trying. I'm daring to hope that things might get better.
I'm very grateful for how much energy and time Master has put into helping me figure these things out and then manage them.
I'm also very sexual today. Not hysteria sexual, just please-rape-me sexual. I feel like a third of the way to spacey orgasm just being within a few inches of Master. I don't know if he just feels extra virile to me currently, or what.
I'm oozing pheremones from every pore, and he probably is too. It's distracting.
Any combination of force/power, penetration (particularly by a body part), and cum on or in me, sounds amazing. Anything involving passion, and I have enough for both of us. Feet in my mouth?Fingers down my throat? Being under his feet? Him masturbating against me, but never quite penetrating me, until he fists me with his cum as lube... Shoved against a wall, arms pinned above kissing? (This sounds particularly good, actually. Anything that pins my body against his. Even that thing he used to do of grinding on top of me, then getting up and leaving) I'm also very sensual, both in a tactile way and an energetic way. He feels so good. I know he's tired and everything, but everything he puts off is so good. I felt like that last when we went to bed. I want to be entirely consumed in that. Watersports even sounds good, or being spit on. Everything from his body is good.
...Apparently I feel pretty worshipful today, also. I've been thinking alot today and yesterday about him as my diety.
I'm oozing pheremones from every pore, and he probably is too. It's distracting.
Any combination of force/power, penetration (particularly by a body part), and cum on or in me, sounds amazing. Anything involving passion, and I have enough for both of us. Feet in my mouth?Fingers down my throat? Being under his feet? Him masturbating against me, but never quite penetrating me, until he fists me with his cum as lube... Shoved against a wall, arms pinned above kissing? (This sounds particularly good, actually. Anything that pins my body against his. Even that thing he used to do of grinding on top of me, then getting up and leaving) I'm also very sensual, both in a tactile way and an energetic way. He feels so good. I know he's tired and everything, but everything he puts off is so good. I felt like that last when we went to bed. I want to be entirely consumed in that. Watersports even sounds good, or being spit on. Everything from his body is good.
...Apparently I feel pretty worshipful today, also. I've been thinking alot today and yesterday about him as my diety.
I wonder what today might bring.
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