I'm feeling way better than I was yesterday, physically. Just some dizziness and extra exhaustion. I slept all day.
My impulsivity is up though. Wayyyy up.
In notable impulsive things, I decided to delete my old Facebook, so I posted that for the next few days people can message me if they still want to stay in touch. So I've been talking to one of my cousins and one of my higschool best friends, who I'm meeting for coffee next weekend? It's actually, I think, a really good thing. Keep people I can still sustainably love from my old life, kill off the rest of that life and burn the bridge. It's actually a nice balance from my usual all or nothing. But it may affect my emotions a bit as I process old connections being approached in a new way.
I'm fairly affixed on concepts that I guess used to be talked about as punishment, but not in a punishment kind of way. I've been looking for the right word all day and I finally found it: cruelty. I crave cruelty.
Other than that, life is fairly standard. I have no gender today.
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