Physical: I hurt so much. My whole body. And I'm so tired, and hot, and feverish. I'm going to try to take a shower, and see if it helps.
Mental: I have what seems like morning brain fog, but I just can't shake it. It was sort of hoping that forcing myself to write this journal would help me to jump start my brain a little bit.
Emotional: I'm sad that I didn't get to work today. I really wanted to. On the more positive end of things, though, last night was wonderful. Master slapped me in the face, and I got that warm feeling in my stomach that I've been chasing my whole life, and as he kept slapping, I came, hard, without any other stimulation. Then I gave him a blowjob, and went to sleep cuddled up so, so happy. You know a thing is good when I don't feel the need to masturbate afterwards! I still feel amazing today. Honestly, I can't wait for him to get home today so that I can feel his chest and arms hugging me, and smell him, and cuddle. Right now I feel like blowjob, cuddles, and sleep together would be just fine to me!
I guess I feel more stable now than I did for a bit. I'm stressing about getting in to see doctors, but when is that not the case? I did call my primary, though, to try and
get in. I left a message.
The house is cooling down now since the thunderstorm, and I actually feel a bit better in all the ways so that's good.
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